Getting onto the Bridge of Actualising Self-full Love

Still plagued with the question 'Why am I here?' Lauviah continues with the belief that 'there are no accidents and coincidences but the choices we make.' This notion forces her to face the vow that she had made to leave no stone unturned. Eventually, she feels compelled to confess her hidden secrets to her son, with the hope to make a better life for both. Lauviah gets to understands that the Crimson Light fuels individuals to see for themselves how far they are willing to go in order to get to where they want to be. But whilst faithfully relying on the allegiance of the light, she had not anticipated the bleeding tears as though being crushed like grapes. She laments but anchors onto the belief of attaining a true sense of self-identity necessary for her liberation and destination: a bridge to actualising self-full love. After witnessing the presumed suicide of Mr Barack Altidore, Lauviah becomes so driven in her quest that she is unaware that she has actually taken on the role of an undertaker. Although she is not with the mindset of discovering a Barbie doll, neither is she with the idea of how deep she has to dig through the stench of her grave, which she must bear before she can even breathe. Lauviah eventually becomes aware that love can only be experienced according to one's sense of willingness to recognise and accept it. Would her creativity and life experiences be sufficient to help accept something that she has never fully known? Will she be able to save her fourth marriage one of heart and soul?